I don’t want to but I cannot help but want to, like Paul said, “know Christ in the fellowship of his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, that I also might somehow attain to the resurrection.” I somewhat know what he means, as my soul is never satisfied unless I am united to my Lord in both, desiring even to be perfectly. I do not have a natural desire to suffer, but the Spirit of Christ within me beckons me to follow him further that I might also know him better. Lord, I desire to do your will. My flesh resists but the Spirit calls. He leads me to the cross.
Jesus was made perfect by what he suffered. Glory to Jesus! Keep calling Lord, that I might answer. Jesus, I want to know you more.